6 posts tagged “stress”

so, i'm trying to figure out ways to make a bit of extra cash, as i'm not quite eeking out a living at my current job, though i like it there.  and i'm trying to keep from being so desperate once i get certified that i'll take any massage job that rolls along, instead of doing it for the love.

does anyone around have any experience with some of those online jobs things?  surveys for money, market research type stuff? 

any help or suggestions or warnings would be vasty and greatly appreciated.  :)

also, i'll clean your house for pretty cheap.

the first day back to work after a nice long vacation? yeah, this sucks. i had forty one emails when i came in this morning! 41!

of course, half of them were junk. so that helps a little bit. but still. i don't want to deal with people this morning. i haven't even checked my voicemail yet, i do NOT want to know how many of them i'm going to have to listen to. i think i'll do that this afternoon.

plus? it's hot in here. why is this office always so frigging hot? or cold?

bah!

tonight, i start classes. so that's good. i tried to start reading last night, but i had too much crap piled around me, and i was dumb and went back out to the other old navy at seven. so i ended up going to B&N and buying a book and some magazines too. so i didn't get home til eight thirty, when i wanted to be home by eight. i still had another load of laundry to do, and i had to do the dishes.

i need to write a to-do list. i've only been home since Sunday, and i already need a to-do list. not that any of these things to do are going to get done before the weekend. i have class tonight,tomorrow,and Thursday. and Friday? well, i'll probably just sit down Friday after work and not get up again until it's time for bed.

can you see i'm feeling just a touch overwhelmed at the moment? i hope things calm down soon.

yesterday was not long enough, either. i had a lot to do, and i only got two things done. i went to the grocery store in the morning, because we needed milk, eggs, bread, and fruit. and i went to BSOM for my personal orientation.

and as usual, orientating doesn't take long, and isn't overly complicated. they gave me my shirts (yeah, we get uniform shirts. i'm overjoyed.), and my binder (with all the outlines of everything in it. sweet! i hate outlining, and refuse to do it unless required to do so for an actual grade), and the A&P books. she went over the student handbook thingy with me, and told me to get started on the reading.

i tried. i really did. but when i saw that we aren't starting with the A&P for the next couple of weeks, i gave up and went to bed. it was already after ten. of course, i am not going to be getting bed before ten for quite some time. but i wanted to get a good night in before work today. so i wouldn't sit here and yawn all day long. i have every intention, however, of sitting down this weekend and reading the first three or four chapters. i want to be ahead so i don't get overwhelmed when it comes time to study and whatnot, because i cannot afford to spend half the night up during the week trying to catch up on reading. this way i can just re-skim things before lectures. and, quite honestly? after reading through once, skimming again, and writing notes during a lecture? i won't need to do much studying. because that's how i roll. (note: i will still need to work on memorizing things, but the basics will be imprinted firmly in my head at this point. hooray near-photographic memory!)

after work... i gotta try to get the dishwasher unloaded. and i really want to take a shower before i head out, because we're having our pictures taken tonight, for when we get into our clinicals and need a photo id. and of course i need to eat dinner, get myself a water bottle together, and make a snack of some kind to eat on the break i'm hoping that we get.

next week, i'm going to try to get started on going to the mall near the school and walking twice a week. i am not sure if i'm going to do it on lecture days or on bodywork days. we'll see. and i need to talk to mom about looking for that workout set we were looking at. (*smallvoice* hip hop abs. it looks like a fun workout, and both cardio and toning, which is what i need, and did i mention it looks like fun? shut up. *endsmallvoice*)

it is not even ten o'clock in the morning, and i'm already feeling hungry again. wtf?! already my "going back to eating well" thing is staring at me with accusing eyes, threatening me if i should eat something before lunch.

i have lots of stuff to post. i kept a bit of a log/journal while we were on the trip, so i could post when i got back. and i have lots of pictures, but i have to upgrade my flickr account before i can upload any of them... so that definitely won't be happening until this weekend.

and because i love to shop and am still excited about the new stuffs i bought for me (and for other folks), i'll probably have to detail all of that as well. i am an acquisitive girl!

the end for now. it's going to take me forever to get caught up on everyone's posts! bear with me, and please send restful vibes my way so i make it through the next year! (hopefully school won't cut too much into my posting time... but considering i seem to do most of that at work anymore, it shouldn't do too badly.)

i am so bored.  and i have nothing to say.  it's been what?  almost three weeks now?  i just haven't had anything to write about. 

and i absolutely hate that.  the muse is on vacation.  i don't even have anything to rant about.  sure, there's plenty going on--getting ready to go back to school (nervous, excited), work (no comment), waiting for the cruise (excited, and oh good god do i need it). 

but i haven't a thing to write about. 

at least, that's how i feel.  so instead i'm writing about my lack of subjects about which to write.  how awesome is that?

*sigh*  is it lunch time yet?!

a'ight, kids.  i most likely won't be around much this weekend.  i likely won't be around at all.  too much to do, never enough time! 

so, i hope y'all have a good one.  do fun stuff, have good times, destress some if you're able.  and i'll catch ya on the flip side!

today is one of those days where i feel like i have a million bajillion things going on, and nowhere near enough time energy or money to get them all done. it's going to be a busy few weeks for me, and i'm not real sure if i'm looking forward to being busy or just kinda dreading it.

actually, it started last night. i had to drive to glen burnie and back, to pick up my dress. only i took the long way, because i didn't have the cash to pay four bucks to take the tunnel ($2 each way--i'm still mad they upped the toll). so i got that done. tonight... tonight i'm going to take a walk.

tomorrow i have my appt to go see the folks at the massage school and get that ball rolling. i'm actually kinda glad that classes don't start until the end of June, because what with the wedding coming up, i'm not sure what i'd do if i had to shell out more money for all that stuff too.

with that, i need to find out what the tuition is, what exactly that gets me, what kind of expenses for books i'm looking at, financial aid, the registration fee, what to do if/when i'm going to miss a week of classes to go see my family. i should probably look into a few of the other schools around the area, but i hear that this one is quite good and i get a good vibe about the whole thing anyway so i might not do that part. *sigh* do i even have the time for that?

when i start classes, i'll need to figure out when i need to leave to get over there, how much more money i need for gas every week, what homework is going to look like, when i'm going to sleep (never, most likely), how the hell i'm going to get across town in rush hour every day, stuff like that.

Thursday i need to do laundry and pack. oh, and i have a doctor's appointment in the morning. then Friday i'm leaving straight from work, hopefully i'll be skipping lunch and leaving an hour early, to go down to see matt. i'm realizing that this probably wasn't the best timing for a road trip ever, but i'm still going to do it.

next weekend is the bridal shower. i still need to make a list of all the food we're doing, and talk to j's mom and aunt about who's doing what. i need to call the giant and pastore's and price deli trays, because i might just go and do that instead of buying all the meat and doing it myself. i need to make a grocery list, and pay for the cake, and make cookies. i need to figure out if i have enough money to get j a present on top of this.

oh, and decorations. i need decorations, plates and cups and silverware and all that jazz. for thirty or so people.

i really need to write that list.

i'm not sure what's going on further out than that. i can't really think past that point at this moment. but it's going to be a busy couple of weeks, have i mentioned that yet?

but then, after the shower we only have three weeks left til the cruise! so that part is good. i hope i can wear some of the new clothes i ordered.

so... i'm a bit frazzled this morning. awesome.

i hate my car.

granted, it's cute. but it's also a piece of junk. stupid fucking VWs. i will never be buying one of those again. i've had the damn thing for just under a year and a half, and i've had to replace both sets of brakes now (the front ones need it as i type), the ac head unit, had a brake sensor go up, i need a new front side tire, and a new fuse panel. oh, and i was in a fender bender and had to get the rear bumper replaced, as well, but that wasn't the car's fault, i suppose.

the cup holders suck, and annoy me to no end. one of them is broken. the stupid "awesome" cd player is a piece of shit. it's in the trunk, so i have to get out of the car to change the discs. yeah, it's a six disc changer, but i'd much rather have a one disc in dash cd player.

it does at least have a nice clutch. yes, i drive a five speed. i love driving a manual car, and i have every intention of my next car being manual as well. and when i get my MINI? that too will be manual.

so this fuse panel thing is the last straw. i cannot afford to be spending five hundred dollars to fix something else on the fucking car every time i turn around.

i'm so done. i know that i owe more on the loan than i will be able to get as a trade in. i don't care. i know that this will affect the interest rate i get on whatever car i get. i don't care.

my mother the accountant is of course being the voice of reason in the matter, encouraging me to think this through. but even she can see my point--is it worth it to keep a car that costs me more over the course of a year and a half than a toyota would cost me over the course of ten? this might be a slight exaggeration, but not by much. my mother drives a sienna. she bought it the year they were released. nothing has ever gone wrong with her car, and it's paid off. there are cons to both sides. if i keep the current car, it's going to keep nickel and dime-ing me to death. if i get a new car, i will be paying more per month on it. either way i'm going to be paying more money.

but look at the track record on my car. can you see why i'm finished? i'd rather have the new car and pay more for it, and not have to worry about it going up on me every time i turn the fucker on. cars are such a waste of money! i want to move to europe, where i can get around via public transpo and my own two damn feet!

so i have been looking at used and new cars today. i can get a brand new corolla in the pretty blue color that i like for fifteen thousand dollars. that aint' half bad, and is only about a thousand dollars more than the used ones with low mileage i was looking at. rock. on.

i just spoke with my mom again. my interest rate will be higher on a new loan, since i'll have to add to the value of the car with the old loan. but the payments will not be out of hand. i can afford them. i will be pretty broke betwixt that and paying as much as i can to get my credit cards paid off, but it won't be unfeasible. and my awesome mom said that she might be able to help me out a little bit on the loan, so i don't have to borrow as much from the bank. which is totally awesome of her, and i'm hesitant to take her up on it... but not that hesitant.

the best thing about having a mother who works at your bank is that i found out straight up what my interest rate will be on a new car. i know how much payments will be for five years. i don't have to worry about what kind of rate the dealer would give me, because i'll refinance the next day through the credit union.

so i'm getting a new car. win!